I am not officially done with my Pancha Karma Cleanse as I still must do Anuvasan Basti. But I felt the need to report how things are going. What I have learned, what I won’t do and what I must focus on WHEN I do it again. This is my public confession.
What the heck am I talking about? I am doing an Ayurvedic cleanse, In brief it is a cleanse that comes from India that involves a step by step process of eliminating toxins. Pancha means 5 in Sanskrit. The cleanse is meant to help cleanse the physical, physiological, mental, spiritual and emotional bodies of an individual. It involves a series of tasks and eating habits one must do daily for a period of 3 days to a week. The prep lasts about a week and the reintroduction to the world of toxins;) lasts a few days. The Deepok Chopra site has an elegant definition and description http://www.chopra.com/panchakarma.
I have done an abbreviated version of this cleanse before. I was so terrified of it that I REALLY emotionally prepared for it. I had no idea how I would feel so I wiped my calendar clean. I did not socialize, only taught a few classes and had a lot of time during the day for my yoga practice, breathing practice, and meditation. I prepared my mono diet everyday and found great joy in doing so. I ate my small allotted amounts mindfully, slowly so I really tasted my food. My 3 meals of kitcheree and my drinking of ghee really satisfied me. I did not experience hunger.
That was then.
This week has been hell. Because the last time the experience was such a walk in the park, this time I didn’t emotionally prepare for it at all. I thought I picked a week where I didn’t have a lot going on but more things ended up on my plate and I HAD to do them (auditions, teaching more and even a gig). I kind of forgot the “Pancha” in Pancha Karma Cleanse. I could only focus on the dietary aspects of this cleanse. Hence, I was starving, a nervous wreck and furious for most of the week. It does not help that I am knee deep in menopause and my hot flashes are out of control.
Where was my yoga practice? When was I breathing? What happened to meditating? These are all Important aspects of the cleanse. The cleanse is a wonderful opportunity for self care. Instead I made it a MUST DO event where hell or high water I was doing this thing and damn it I was going to feel good afterward.
Hmmm. No wonder why most people go on retreat for this cleanse. It takes time, patience, and your responsibilities to the outside world MUST be reduced.
If I were to do this again, IN THIS WAY, my boyfriend promised to build a hut and lock me in it so I have no chance of interacting with him. Hmmm. I think should do it it the RIGHT WAY the next time. Oh and as for Anuvasun Basti… google it. I just cant even think about that right now.
Peace, health and happiness,
Molly Hagan






